Being a Cancer on cusp of Leo, my family life is an important, magnified part of my life... it makes sense then that I came into this life with issues to be overcome with family members... along with this, getting attention is important as a Leo....

My parents divorced in my freshman year of high school around Christmas time... my mother had been sick for most of my life... when I was born she almost died, when I was a toddler she had panic attacks and other people had to take care of me and my brother, and then when I was in 6th grade she had breast cancer........... then my parents split up, she moved into a condo a few minutes away... a lot of things changed...

I would definitely say that my life is probably much better this way than it would have been if she had stayed... but I have a lot of hurt I'm ready to release... I always had this connection with my mom... pretty much, when she suffers, I suffer more... and I've tried to talk to her about it but she's like a toddler taking a tantrum (picture: a toddler plugging their ears and stomping their feet saying "I cannn'tttt heearrr yoouuu")... she'll then ignore me for days. She has no problem not talking to me for weeks...

I refuse to live like this anymore... crying because my mom doesn't love me the way I think she should... I'm now 22... she moved out 8yrs ago... and she doesn't call my brother and I over to spend time with her, she expects us to contact her... but she likes to be needed and when there are children out there without mothers, she helps them... which is good, but its funny, where are your own kids?

I've been lighting a candle everynight before bed and I saw "I forgive you, mom" ... and I tell my angels I'm ready to release this... I know how I sound, I apologize for sounding so angry... I feel this in my heart/stomach energy centers... I'm so nautious...